A journey under the skull, into the mind


another old poem 2005

DARKNESS

by holli priddy

Running blindly through the night

Running, looking for some light

i hate the darkness

It brings me fears

My nightmares come to life

In the darkness of the night

Running, looking moving faster

i hate the dark it gives them laughter

They surround me and drown me full of tears

Screaming, crying, make it stop

Looking always for a spot

Somewhere where there’s light

Take me in from the night

Help me, save me

Don’t let me go

Please….

                                                2005

Ran across an old poem I wrote 3/18/2007

Without a guide

The world is ever changing
Surrounding her
Drowning her
Once so deaf, so blind
The world was so different in her mind
Forever to be broken
Spells and words spoken
Give her the hand she needs to take
Bring her back from life
Leaving her out there was a mistake
Not ready for the world
Bring her back in
Open up the door
Hurry up someone let her in!
They stand there in the hall way
Their eyes upon the door
No one lets her in
Her nails drag across the porch floor
Not ready for the world
But no one will let her back in.

Self examination

I did this question-are back in December. Lets see the difference

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Nope can’t say I was, well except my middle name and last name

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
A couple of days ago, I hate confusion with no answers.

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Um no I usually avoid writing by hand if at all possible


4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Turkey or tuna

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
yup I got this 2 year old attachment to my hip

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?

Probably, I’m funny, smart, and encouraging, the fact that I’m a royal bitch spices things up.


7. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT?
It’s a must on a daily basis, but nobody understands


8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
I believe so I still get throat colds

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
Um yah, bengee jumping is like living, you never know what will happen, it’s taking the risk that matters


10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
Boo berries, but since it’s seasonal I settle for lucky charms


11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
Who wears shoes with shoe strings? lol


12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?
I am on those rare occurrence.


13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Mint choco chip, coffee, and strawberry.


14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
Their eyes, and their laughter, so probably their laughter, people laughing catch my attention cause it’s infectious. A virus with no want for a cure.

15. red or pink? pink


16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
My bladder. I have to pee alot


17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
Myself


18. WHAT IS THE SPARK FEATURE THAT HAS HELPED YOU THE MOST?
my lack of understanding


19. WHAT COLOR SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
  invisible


20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
um…steak from last night


21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
handy many on the tv


22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
most likely glitter grey, i like the grey area


23. FAVORITE SMELLS?
coffee and cupcakes


24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
olivia


25. MOUNTAIN HIDEAWAY OR BEACH HOUSE?

both

26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
Roller Derby


27. HAIR COLOR?
redish brownish grey


28. EYE COLOR?
currently blue green


29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
Rarely, i like my glasses


30. FAVORITE FOOD?
Good ol american pot roast and taters


31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
scary movie i hate happy endings they give me to much disappointment


32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
twilight lol


33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
black and white


34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
fall


35. HUGS OR KISSES?
hugs, i miss being held


36. FAVORITE DESSERT?
coffee


37. STRENGTH TRAINING OR CARDIO?
strength training


38. COMPUTER OR TELEVISION?
computer


39. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
business law

40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
my mouse?

41. ANY TATTOOS?
little sister symbol and a dandelion


42. FAVORITE SOUND?
a childs laughter and the sound of a breeze


43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES?
max well silver hammer all the way

44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?

1234 miles

45. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
I can talk for hours and never run outta things to say


46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
in a room

Fleeting moments

All of your emotions and passions are fleeting moments, your ways of expression will disappear and reappear in a different form. You should never strive for anything but true harmony. Without good there no evil. One thing can never always be forever good or evil because it’s the equal balance that makes everything work. to believe in salvation you must believe in damnation. To live a long fulfilling life, you should never hold to strongly on material possessions. Enjoy every passing moment with no restraints.


A memory is all but a memory, but one can live those memories so intensely in their minds that it feels it has only happened. The humans emotions are our strength as well as our weakness. The thought process is the enemy as well as your alliance.


To have a sense of doubt you have no room for success….

I have lived many a moments where I have felt so passionately about something, loved so strongly without restraints, felt paid and loss to where I wanted to die. The ups in downs in life are at an equal balance, the best you can do is learn from them, and move forward. To be in a state of despair, you must remember to just get through it because the enjoyment will come soon enough. You can only be blissful if you understand the pros and cons of life and accept them with grace knowing it will change and we cannot predict the future, but merely live in the moment that exist before us. The second you think, that thought will be in the past, the smile that caresses your lips will soon be a memory. The tears that have fallen will soon be forgotten and all material possession will not join us on our journey to rebirth, so love strong, laugh as much as possible, live by the code and accept evil with grace, because the good will come.

Job hunt issues

I have reached a point in my job hunting that I can’t handle the fact that I have no income, these hour restrictions are exhausting trying to find a job. No body seems to be working with me on them either. I just wish I could get more help. Find a daytime job they say, make sure it’s flexable with the daycare hours….well one… I need money to put kenzi in daycare….two….I need a job to get that money….three I need someone to watch kenzi while I try to find a job during those day care hours in the first place!…..

Why haven’t you find a job yet?? Why haven’t you helped me! DUH

Beyond Help

I understand that I have a high regard toward my opinion. But DAMN some people really need to just give it a rest.


So there is this young ignorant girl who strives for attention that just so happens to be momentarily involved around my life through association. So needless to say I get to put up with her lack of…..well manners on the rare occasions. Every time I find them to be intolerable.


FACEBOOK has become a place of argument, solely because she feels the need to voice or opinion in things I say, which generally disagrees. I understand she doesn’t like the same things I do…fine. to each their own it doesn’t phase  me, but to continue proving your side after the other party understands that you don’t like something is beyond aggravating and I feel the urge to gag her and throw her in a cage and down a very deep dark hole.


Yes your upbringing sucked, yes you’re a bitch, yes you get the shit end, but DAMN get the fuck over yourself and realize that there is more than life than all your negative bullshit.

Thank you and goodbye crazy bitch.

To speak truthfully seems to hurt those who don’t want to hear it, but if I spoke a lie and they found out they would still get hurt…I don’t understand

COMPROMISE!!! FUCKING A man some people really should learn how to do this shit…

Admission to aging

Put some espresso grounds on your face they say, it helps give a more useful shine they say….

Ok so the organic face mask thing caught my attention and hey I love the smell of coffee and I can’t lie and say that I don’t realize that my youthful charm is depleting and being taken over by an older more worn out version of me and that I get offended when the cashier seems confused when I hand her my id to buy a case of beer…Maybe I am looking a little older, my boulders aren’t as perky as I’d like and my face is a little worn, my metabolism might be coming to a stand still so I was like ok maybe it’s time I hop on the “younger you” gravy train and I love organic crap so why not…


I look like a swamp monster on crack and smell like an expensively made Starbucks double shot espresso stashed inside a darkest roast mocha latte…which is confusing since Latte’s are what people perceive as CAPPUCCINO…and..it doesn’t smell like that, so maybe more of a french darkest roast morning brew….yah sounds about right and the longer I sit here the harder my face gets and i feel like it’s botox gone wrong…


Le sigh….you can only live once so try to stay beautiful so you won’t hate your reflection in the morning and stash them all away in the attic and flip shit every time someone opens up a compact…

<3 Love yah.

never be afraid to dream, and understand that beauty isn&#8217;t the cover but the soul

never be afraid to dream, and understand that beauty isn’t the cover but the soul